Day #714 - Taking Charge

I have to take charge of the life that I want to live.

Goals of the Day:

• List out all specific tasks to be done in the office and execute them
• Not Achieved
• Exercise
• Achieved

Today's Small Wins:

• Jogged for 2 km
• Had a nice evening chilling and watching Netflix with Dearest
• An intimate conversation with Dearest
• Archived 1 x Maths Paper 2

Today's Small Losses:

• Didn't meditate
• Slept late

Things I'm Grateful for Today:

• Dearest's willingness to talk about sensitive issues, and care enough to see things from my perspective
• Being able to rest more peacefully knowing that tomorrow is a holiday

Day #713 - 0.33 o f Year Passed

1/3 of the year has passed.
It feels rather sad that I have not achieved much personally.
But as a family, I feel that life is still good.

Goals of the Day:

• Sit down for 30 minutes today to plan for the week ahead
• Achieved
• Take over the conversation to book confinement ladies
• Achieved
• Reduce distraction in office
• Achieved

Today's Small Wins:

• Planned my week
• Initiated conversation with confinement ladies
• Iron clothes
• Meditated for 10 min

Today's Small Losses:

• Didn't read for 10 min
• Tasks piling at work; need to take charge of the project teams

Things I'm Grateful for Today:

• A nice Korean dinner with Dearest
• Another birthday of Mum

Day #710 - Pregnant with the Future

I will hold the future close to me.

Goals of the Day:

• Have a good visit
• Achieved
• Plan out the weekends
• Not Achieved

Today's Small Wins:

• A good visit with Dearest

Today's Small Losses:

• Didn't meditate
• Didn't plan out the weekends

Things I'm Grateful for Today:

• An amazing experience of seeing and hearing our future

Day #709 - Short Sprints

When the trigger is pulled, nothing matters anymore.
Just go.

Goals of the Day:

• Plan and execute work tasks
• Achieved
• Review remaining week's free periods, decide on a priority task and plan for it
• Not Achieved
• Support Dearest in her important event today
• Achieved

Today's Small Wins:

• Supported Dearest in the way that she needed
• Finished off most of the work tasks

Today's Small Losses:

• Didn't meditate
• Didn't plan the week again

Things I'm Grateful for Today:

• Things went okay for Dearest today at a significant work event, and I'm proud of her professionalism ("she knows her shit")
• A mini tea break gathering with badminton friends without plan

Day #708 - When I Let Go of What I Am

I become what I want to be.

This quote might be fake (not from Lao Tzu), but somehow it reminds me to let go of my current self that I hold on to, in order to pursue a self that I desire. I.e. getting out of my comfort zone to my desired self.

Goals of the Day:

• Plan out work schedule for all projects
• Not Achieved
• Prep well for public tuition
• Achieved
• Plan out week's tasks
• Not Achieved

Was too occupied with other work matters to do planning.

And didn't really focus well after tuition to do personal tasks planning for the week, or what's remaining of it.

Today's Small Wins:

• Meditated for 10 min
• Did pull-ups for pre-lunch workout
• Conducted a good tuition

Today's Small Losses:

• Didn't plan work schedule
• Didn't plan personal task schedule

Things I'm Grateful for Today:

• Dearest liking the breakfast I made
• A regular at my public tuition
• Being able to go home early because the meeting ended early

Day #707 - Mounting Pressure to Change

Last night as I have some time to myself to think about what to do, I was kinda paralyzed on what I need to do.
It feels defeating to be sitting there at my desk, not knowing what's the next step.
I'm afraid to make a move, in fear that I might be moving in the wrong direction.
Am I overthinking this too much?
Perhaps it's different for everyone.
I just need to quickly draft up a plan, and push forward.

Goals of the Day:

• Plan the remaining of the week for scheduled tasks
• Not Achieved
• Message Dad Happy Birthday
• Achieved
• Meditate for 10 min
• Achieved

Got another task paralysis tonight. =(

Today's Small Wins:

• Meditated for 10 min

Today's Small Losses:

• Did not plan the week

Things I'm Grateful for Today:

• Being able to go home on time
• Having a comfortable office
• Dearest enduring all these discomfort for us

Day #701 - Crossing Threshold

It's past 700 days since I have initiated this self-improving movement.
It's the best, but it's something that reminds me that I want to do something.
I continue to stand on a threshold, and push myself to cross it.

Goals of the Day:

• Get most packing done in office
• Achieved
• Complete important tasks at work
• Not Achieved
• Have a good public tuition session
• Achieved
• Message Dad
• Not Achieved
• Set up data plan for Mum
• Achieved

Today's Small Wins:

• Did packing in office
• Managed to set up data plan for Mum before she leaves for holiday

Today's Small Losses:

• Didn't meditate
• Didn't complete important tasks at work
• Didn't message Dad

Things I'm Grateful for Today:

• Dearest's research on Airbnb choices
• A ride home
• Arrival of the robot vacuum cleaner after 1 month of purchase